Meditation is something that has been suggested to me millions of times by friends, books, blogs, signs from the Universe. I know this is a good thing and that the benefits are a long list of pros. I don’t know why I resist or lag on doing this easy and free practice that could bring me such peace and a direct connection to the Super Universe.
As of lately, I have become unusually stressed and feeling like I am going to loose my s–t, as one girlfriend describes it. I have been yelling at the kids, the spouse, and telling the cat that she’s getting on my last nerve. The dogs seem exempt from my mood swings and I’m not sure why. I believe they are wise and keep to themselves when they smell the nervous energy exuding off me.
I’m not going through much. We are looking for a home and that becomes stressful for reasons I had never thought up when I got on this crazy train. I believe that most of my stress is just absorbing the world’s woes and living in a jam-packed urban area with all the urban issues.
Every once in a blue moon I go to a church. Yes, I have not committed to any one church. I’m a little too open minded to conform blindly to the Christian system and I find the Centers for Spiritual Living to get a little too fluffy. I like to combine them and that usually is frowned upon so I just do it at home.
Anyhow, I went to one of the enormous mega churches here because they have Lincoln Brewster play sometimes (like this Sunday) and, with the auditorium and lights, sometimes they even have fog machines, it is like going to a concert. It feels like we have traveled elsewhere for a big Christian convention and for a stay at home wife that is pretty fun and within our tiny budget.
Of course, I wish it was more Joyce Myers and that the talk was more on how to live a good, wholesome life and less about carrying the message to more people. It tends to feel a lot like “how to get others to convert because this is the only way”. I’m sorry all you Christians out there. This is not the only way. There are hundreds of ways to connect to God and love Jesus.
I did get a message yesterday, however, though I had to mold it to my ears and needs. The message was about finding your gifts and talents, about serving and not conforming to this world’s ways.
“Do not conform to the pattern of this world, but be transformed by the renewing of your mind. Then you will be able to test and approve what God’s will is…” ROMANS 12:2
I love this verse because I find that as this world goes through its growing pains and violence, drugs, gangs, and mayhem seem to be everywhere and it does seem that the large chunks of our society are still living in shallow waters filled with drama, reality shows, vanity, and greed…well, it freaks me out. It feels like we are always trying to find safe places to play, to walk, to hang out, to live. You can’t get away from the drugs and gangs anymore, they are everywhere. You can’t escape the world and its politics and addiction to drama. It’s everywhere.
But wait! You can. Meditation. Why does this work? Because a lot of that drama and fear is internal. Yes, it is happening outside us in the world. But it is our own individual choice how much we take in and how occupied we become with it all. Our minds are filled to overflowing and working 24/7 on all the tragedies and stresses of life. And most of it is overblown and overworked. Just like the media. We have been brainwashed well. We have learned to feed on turmoil and fret.
Just like the parable of the Indian and the story of the two wolfs. Here is an old Cherokee Legend:
An old Cherokee is teaching his grandson about life. “A fight is going on inside me,” he said to the boy.
“It is a terrible fight and it is between two wolves. One is evil – he is anger, envy, sorrow, regret, greed, arrogance, self-pity, guilt, resentment, inferiority, lies, false pride, superiority, and ego.” He continued, “The other is good – he is joy, peace, love, hope, serenity, humility, kindness, benevolence, empathy, generosity, truth, compassion, and faith. The same fight is going on inside you – and inside every other person, too.”
The grandson thought about it for a minute and then asked his grandfather, “Which wolf will win?”
The old Cherokee simply replied, “The one you feed.”
Meditation helps us to stop all the craziness immediately and clear the room. In that quiet, we can actually hear Spirit for the first time. We will receive guidance to lead us to a better life with peace and love and true happiness. It will lead us away from all the world’s insanity. We can quiet all that noise right now and throughout the day as we practice meditation.
We can do walking meditations were we take walks and just listen to the sounds of the woods or our neighborhood. We can meditate as we clean the house as the Tibetan monks meditate as they wash the vast expanse of temple floors. We can quiet our minds in the shower and just hear the water running and the silence of the house. The noise outside won’t stop, however, we can go silent within the chambers of our minds and just be present in that noise.
I get worked up about everything. A neighbor down the street took down three beautiful sequoias and I wanted to pound on their door and say, “what the hell are you thinking destroying nature that took at least 20 years of growth.” I want to have fits and protest all the time. Hate is a strong word but I hate what this world is about mostly. The wars and prejudice, too many people, global warming, how people don’t seem to have pride in their homes, the loss of community, the drugs that are just rampant. I could go on but I will be feeding the crazy wolf right?
I can’t change the world. I can do my part by putting my money in the right places and with the right corporations. I can walk instead of drive and hang my clothes out on the line and grow organic food and donate to good causes and be neighborly. My family can make a difference in our small way. But the world is going to go on like this for some time as others are on their journey to self-awareness, as the world awakens to a new thought, as karma and agreements play out and enlightenment blossoms.
We are heading rapidly into a Golden Age. It may not seem like it right now because we are in the birthing process and that’s violent as mothers know (unless you had a c section). So, for those of us that are a bit ahead on the spiritual evolution trail, let’s just detach and disconnect from the rest. Create your own peaceful world. Don’t conform to the rest of the world. Create a life that is wholesome, peaceful, and kind. Find your tribe and set up your nest. Find the world that fits you. Feed the wolf that you want to grow.