I’m going to make this to the point and short. It’s an ongoing battle and obviously an addiction because I’ve struggled for decades over this.
Yesterday I was caught on camera and it was hideous. I have never looked so old, so fat and frumpy, so serious. I am just not alright with this and it must change.
The other morning, before this tragic photo event, I woke up with this thought, “you could manage to lose 50 lbs in a year right?” I hadn’t even been thinking about my weight but my subconscious obviously was. I began to think about how I would lose the 50 in a year. I can’t diet. THat has been an unsuccessful venture for decades. I do love to exercise but 80% of your success is the way you eat.
Recently we went back to a vegetarian, almost vegan lifestyle and we are enjoying it very much, however, we still eat a lot of sugar and white flour (my homemade tortilla craze).
I have read all the books and seen all the documentaries on vegan diets and lifestyles. I know how to do this way of eating and the benefits. It’s actually following through a 100%. The American food and sugar is an addictive thing that takes hard work and commitment to overcome. Unlike quitting an addiction like drinking, you can’t avoid food.
But you can change the way you eat completely and stick to it until it becomes a good habit and the results are so abundant and wonderful you would never go back. You would probably need a good year to really master it and integrate it into your life.
I’m committing today. I have already been in the kitchen and pantry taking inventory, I used stevia in my coffee instead of raw sugar and I made fat free home fries with seasoning. I will switch the white tortillas to wheat and I will avoid sugar in all forms. I will reduce my fat intake drastically. The kids will eat slightly different of course but my husband, grannie and I will benefit from this diet upgrade.
I will also be very committed to the vegan diet. The family can use and eat eggs but I won’t. Bali will eat yogurt because Indians love their yogurt but I won’t.
I already have returned to my tread climber and I will commit to 3 to 5 days of that and weights.
I love water and drink at least 3 quarts a day. I take vitamins lately. We eat organic and non-GMO. We are partway there.
We’ll be eating far more produce since I’ll have to rely on salads and green smoothies to fill myself up. We have a Sprouts 30 minutes from here and Grannie and I have planned shopping there when they have the discount Wednesday.
I am done living like this. I detest photos of me and that can’t continue. I have very little boys age 5 and 3 and they need to look back at photos with their mother. I can’t not be in their photos because I feel ugly and fat. That is heartbreaking. I also must be as healthy, slim and fit as ever to age well for them. I come from very healthy farm stock and we live into our 90’s but I want to be a vibrant 90 so I’ll be with my boys as they grow into men and build their homes and lives. I want to be that 80-year old that is out walking and gardening and gathering with her old ladies group to knit or whatever the future old ladies will be doing.
I don’t want to be broken down and crippled, overweight and sick.
I commit today and on into the future.
Here are some great documentaries and books to inspire:
Forks Over Knives (Netflix documentary)
Farmmegedon (Netflix documentary)
The China Study (Book)
Skinny Bitch (Book on veganism…has some language but very informative and fun to read)
Cowspiracy (Netflix documentary)
Vegucated (Netflix documentary…loved this one!)
What the Health (Netflix)
Food, Inc. (Netflix)
Once you watch some of these you will be convinced that changing our diets and being mostly plant-based is the way out of a lot of health crisis situations. I watch a lot of documentaries and read books, find articles online to inspire, inform and remind me why I’m doing this.
It’s also like breaking an addiction and the best way to break bad habits is to start a lot of new habits to replace the void caused by the missing bad habits and fills you up with good stuff to keep you going.
Get support. Family and friends can support and find a partner. I have a friend living in New Jersey and we both had traumatic photos over the past few days and have done some major therapy around how we feel about our bodies, aging, and health. We are committed as of today. We are each other’s support. We will share articles and books and documentaries to keep our sails full and ships moving forward. Maybe find friends that already live like this.
Replace old foods with new. I will still want certain foods and will find alternatives. I can find or make snacks and foods that are similar to things I love such as burgers, ice cream, cake, tortillas, pizza, burritos. There are vegan, no sugar, low-fat alternatives. It requires learning, trying new recipes or altering old recipes with replacements.
It can be fun and exciting especially when you see the positive changes and feel yourself morphing into a healthy, slimmer, lovelier, happier person.
Today I give myself a year to transform.