We had our first Thanksgiving early with close friends last night. We will have Thanksgiving day with Grannie in a couple days. I can’t even think of stuffing right now. I ate heartily and couldn’t even move toward my desert for hours and then only a few bites.
I tried to be as vegan as possible but fell completely short with the use of some chicken stock in the stuffing, chicken gravy, and some ice cream on the pie. Oh, and I used cream of chicken with the cream of mushroom in the green bean casserole. So, I wasn’t even vegetarian. Drat. I baked a cruelty-free, hormone/antibiotic free chicken for the guest and I ate the Quorn Turk’y Roast, that was my only successful win. Turned out that everyone really liked the Turk’y Roast and I may have gotten away with skipping the chicken. With the Grannie Thanksgiving, I’m going full vegan. It’s hard when you cook a huge meal for none vegans. I just go with it.
I have been up early with the hens. Those girls are ridiculous. They are supposed to rise with the sun but they are always ready to go by 5:00 AM or earlier and I can confirm there is no light in the sky. I have been up earlier. I do this. I wake to pee and then I start thinking. Sadly, I seem to be a bit angry and negative in my thinking lately. I’ve noticed this in the middle of the night or when I clean the house. I have to do a lot of self-therapy. Some of it is private stuff and some of it is just old stuff that is left over from the past, childhood, the mother, blah, blah, blah.
So, here are the issues; my thinking is not so positive. I’ve been frustrated with some relationships and I’m sure they aren’t even wasting a second on thinking about me. It’s my own stuff. I’m not nearly grateful enough, I get things and then I want more or different or an upgrade instead of being joyful and present with what I have and where I am. I have been at this weight loss mission for a couple months and moving toward a fully vegan lifestyle and, although I’m getting better all the time and more committed, I’ve lost no weight and I’m not doing this as well as I could. I wanted to lose 50 in 1 year. I’m two months behind. Crackers!
I woke this morning fretting about all of this. I’m doing things wrong. Wrong with getting to fully vegan, wrong with losing weight, wrong with my state of mind…
And there are things I desire strongly. Not just to be slim and fit but also to be more at peace and love and happiness. It is possible. Well, there will be those days and moods, however, I believe it’s possible to be at least 90% happy and at peace.
I also believe that I should be able to slim down despite being in my 40’s. I just need to get it right. I can not accept this weight any longer. I’m 5’4″ and 200 lbs give or take a few ounces.
Then as a side note, I want to really educate myself on gardening and homesteading through the winter so that come spring I’ll have some garden success.
I began a search on Youtube for weight loss and veganism. I like videos. And I found some really fun and inspiring stuff. I happened upon HighCarbHannah and then her spouse and his wonderful DIY site. They are vegan and homesteading in a tiny house in Arizona. His show is so informative and he interviews other debt free tiny house homesteaders. Her site has great recipes and cooking tutorials. She also has a HighVibeHannah and this girl is very positive. She has overcome obesity and anxiety disorders, turning her life around completely. I really love the videos once her and her spouse move to Arizona and do their tiny house living.
DIY Homestead Projects (Derek’s channel)
High Carb Hannah
They have other links to inspiring people doing vegan and homesteading vlogs.
Another site that is fun for tiny home lovers is Tiny House Giant Journey:
Then there is TheVeganAthlete and I am just so amazed by what he has accomplished in Arizona. He has 200 fruit trees and 20 raised beds. And this is in Arizona! Hannah and Derek interview him on his property and it’s worth watching.
High Carb Hannah has a ton of great vegan recipes from pizza to sushi and chocolate ice cream. She also has a couple videos called “meal swaps” and it shows how fattening the vegan junk food is and how to make a similar dish but far lower in the fat and calories and salt.
If you are just starting out in the homesteading, tiny house…or vegan realm, these are fun, interesting, and creative folk to follow. If you want a simpler life, a healthier life, a positive mindset…try them out. They will lead you to others.
I spent hours this early morning with a candle lite on my nightstand, my coffee that my good husband brought to me when he rose at 4:30 AM, and I watched vlog after vlog.
I am now motivated to go into the next phase. On a positive note, I am 95% vegan now (let’s not talk about Thanksgiving). I am loving it, into it, immersing myself in the recipes and vlogs. After watching hours of Hannah I know exactly why I’m not losing weight and it has nothing to do with being older. I’ve gone from milk, cheese, butter, meat to alternative milk, cheese, butter, meat. I eat the veggies and fruit and brown rice, beans…and the vegan junk food. The mac and cheese, grilled cheese, faux meats, treats and so on.
Now, I have eaten well and lot’s of alternatives, processed foods, vegan junk food and vegan sweets and I haven’t gained an ounce in three months. If I was eating real junk, cheese, butter, milk, meat, I would have gained a lot of weight. So, a vegan diet, even with the faux meats and cheese, the sweets, is still less fat and calories and it’s easier to maintain a weight. Got it.
To lose weight one has to really go clean and basic. More plant-based, unprocessed foods. Fewer tortillas, bread, sweets, and alternatives. Use nutritional yeast in place of cheese, get the most natural and low fat burgers or make your own. Making your own pizzas and burgers from scratch so you can monitor the oil and salt. Tons of salads, veggies and fruit. That sort of thing. Less Dayia cheese, less vegan vanilla cake.
I am now ready to go from Vegan 101 to the intermediate to advanced vegan lifestyle to get as amazingly healthy, slim, and fit as possible.
The boys enjoyed watching the cooking vlogs with Hannah this morning and chose recipes to do with me. Last night Arjan showed his father some of the pilate moves he’s learned from our exercise DVD I do every other day. He told Bali he wants to do it every day with me so he can get really strong. Sammy would rather cook and Arjan would rather work out. What a perfect team I have and what a great, healthy lifestyle they are learning at such a young age. I think about how good it will be for them to see their mother set goals and work with devotion toward accomplishing them. To watch their mother get so fit and thrive. What a great life lesson to teach children.
Ok, so the other thing that I’m having a huge desire to immerse myself in and spend this winter educating myself on is as much homesteading as I can get Bali to agree to. I have ordered three books that I wanted for my personal library on backyard farming. I will also be watching TheVeganAthlete vlogs and Derek’s vlogs (the DIY Homesteading Projects). I learn so much from them. Another few vlogs to watch are Off Grid with Doug and Stacey:
Hollis and Nancy’s Homestead (thanks, Evelyn), these guys have a city farm and I love their vlogs so far:
And these will lead to more. I’m going learn all I can fit in my head during this rainy and cold time of hibernation. When spring comes I’m going to plant like a mad woman. I’ve already chosen a small greenhouse from Amazon. It’s on my “wish list” section.
Last but most important…the attitude. I have a greedy side. I can fall out of gratitude real quick, live in the future or the land of “I wish”. I am still not really, really loving myself. I like myself and even being so plump I still go out and I’m very active. I don’t have a big issue with myself or negative body image. But do I truly love myself? I had so many years of self-hate and I think I’ve only graduated to some self-acceptance with some residual unhappiness. I also still have some of my mothers crazy ideas about the world and how bad things are. I can go down a negative path quickly.
I’ve ordered some spiritual books from the library and I intend to work on this intensely until I have shaken out every bugga boo. I can’t afford to be negative, fat, and unhealthy. I have little people that adore me and I must be their real live heroine. Stay tuned, this will be a great journey and I’m sure I will have lots of books, vlogs, and new advice.